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year end rambling….

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I’ve been pondering, yes more than usual, and I think that I am going to throw some of my thoughts out there.  No order, no goal.

I’m sick and tired of the economy.  And seeing as I am part of it, I’m going on strike.  For the year 2017 I will only buy necessities like food and toilet paper. And of course home repairs, car repairs, and vet bills…..but you get the idea.  F-them.

About social media, yeah it sucks.  It time sucks and it can be a wasteful distraction from better things.  I mean seriously, you’d feel one hundred times better if you took a nap rather than spend an hour on Facebook. Cutting back, but not cutting out.

And regarding Donald, I dont want to hear what he tweeted.  Until a story is actually news worthy, I’m tuning the Donald out.  Can I tell you something? When I hear his name my stomach literally turns.  He, and the mention of him, makes me physically sick.

I will support issue that are dear to my heart.  Mother Theresa once said,

“I was once asked why I don’t participate in anti-war demonstrations. I said that I will never do that, but as soon as you have a pro-peace rally, I’ll be there.”

I never understood it until this year.  It’s that mentality that I have to carry to get through this f-up world.  War and social issues are complicated and there is just way too much negativity.  My body can’t take any additional turmoil.  So I hope this year, to support some of the most simplest causes protecting human rights, animal rights and our environment.

You do know I am extremely liberal.  And by the way, I am proud of that.

I made a list to live by, for my daily grind….it’s a bit over reaching.   I can’t find it now. Shit.  I forget everything.  It was things to do everyday.  Making life habits.  Now I have to think it all up again.

  1. read
  2. give something
  3. do art
  4. play with dogs
  5. write something
  6. I cant remember… probably yoga….I’ve been meaning to take that up for years.

Anyway you get the idea.  I just can’t waste another year filling my head with all the crap in the world that I can not control.

Those are my thoughts for now. Just ramblings …. I hope to be writing better stuff real soon…..Carry on and cheers!

The time has come to do some math

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Yes it’s going to be a new year. And yes I am excited about it.  Why? I don’t know.  I suppose its a results of many years of conditioning.

Here the thing about my new year, I did a little math equation and to tell you the truth it kind of blew my socks off. I’ll share it below:

 1 hour of FB per day x 365 days = 365 hours

If you are at all like me, there are days I don’t go on at all, and other days where it feels like I can’t stay off.  In any case, it’s all time and every little bit adds up. Even if you are waiting in line or at a soccer practice it’s time taken.

365 hours / 24 hours in a day = 15.208 days per year

That is more than a two week vacation.  This blew my mind.

I’m not saying I will quit FB, nor am I suggesting anyone else to stop using the beast.  I’m only offering some insight to something that has been on my mind and that I hope to curtail.  Especially because I have been known to complain about not having enough time, and yet I have used my time poorly.

I have some lofty goals this coming year.  Why I chose 2016 may have to do with the fact that 2015 went by so fast that I feel like I missed the entire year.  Flat out missed it.  So yes, this is my resolution-to be aware and conscience of my minutes.

I wish you all a beautiful time ahead.

Cheers to all.

back at it again-maybe, and the keys to life.

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How’s that for a commitment?  Not too forceful, and probably not anything anyone would believe but myself. I have had a great many days to figure out just how I want to live my life, and that’s a good thing because while thinking about it I WAS living my life.

I’ve got it down to a few simple goals, simple in that they are all things that I can control should I choose to.  Not simple at all to do.  That takes discipline.  I never like that word. Discipline. Sounds too hard. Discipline is what great athletes have, you know, the ones that make it, and say they practiced everyday of their lives since they could walk.  Yuck!  I would be too bored to have done that.

But now, in my wisdom, I understand that discipline is just another way of saying do what you like, often, and always, and don’t stray. It means do all the things that you need to do to reach or achieve your goal. It means line up everything in favor of what you want.  It means focus.  Focus hard.  It also means filter.  You have to filter out the distractions.  Whether these distractions are internal, as in your mind – your thoughts, or external as in everything and everyone in the whole dang world.  Filtering and focus are both at your disposal, and they are the best f*cking tools you’ll every know.

Oh don’t forget belief, self-confidence.  You have to, have to, believe that you can do whatever it is you want.  I don’t care one bit if it is a realistic goal or not.  Judging your goal is a major distraction.  Don’t do it…and never let anyone else do it (judge your goal) for you!

Discipline, focus, filter and believe. The keys to everything.

Please add any other keys in the comment section below.

It’s a great day!  Enjoy.

against the odds- 40 day attempt

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Have you ever felt like you were ready to change, to start something to better you life but you felt restricted by people around you?  It’s like trying to change life long patterns that no longer fit your dreams, and people around you take every chance to mock or dismiss your ideas.

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I have felt that way for several years now.  And I believe I allowed those outside influences to make my attempts at changing terribly difficult.

Face it, we all know there are productive methods for example, get yourself out of a rut. But when you talk about it, there seems someone is always more than ready to tell you how it won’t work, or you’ll never stick with it.  Then they might go as far to point out several of your past failed attempts to change.  That is the sort of thing that crushes me.

Even changing my eating habit is still to this day met with sideways glances and grimacing faces.   Usually from people who are closest to me.  “You eat that?! Gross.”   They may even mock where I read about it and challenge it’s validity.  In any case, the negative responses really effect me.  I wish they didn’t do this , but they do.

Some say you have to ignore them, easier said then done.   Others say you have to remove them from your life, and surround your self with more like-minded people.  Again easier said then done.

So today, I have to ignore them.  And tomorrow I have to ignore them, and for the rest of my life I have to ignore them.  I have to look past what they say, and stay on my path.  This is going to be hard, because my auto-pilot reactions is to self doubt.  My thoughts race to:  ” They are right, I do fail all the time. I will never be able to change.”  And the words I hear, plus the word I then tell myself  reinforce constant failures as my truth.

I am going to try.  Again.  I know that this will all be on me.  If I fail one day, I will have to get back up.  It all sounds so cliche, but I have no other options.  I have to gather every once of encouragement no matter if I find it.

Right now this is my guide:  A book:   May Cause Miracles  by Gabrielle Bernstein

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I’ll blog about  my 40 day journey.  Cheers.

Frightening

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You know what is really really frightening?

It really is scary to “not care.”  Like to just not give a rats ass about stuff.  All kinds of stuff -anything you can think of -stuff.

It’s not the same as surrendering, is it?  I don’t think so.  I don’t know.

All I know is I can not control anything, and it doesn’t matter what happens because there is nothing I can do about it.

I remember being preoccupied about so many things and trying to make everything just right.  I would stress, worry, panic, and in turn guess what happened in the end?  Nothing ever turned out “just right.”  Absolutely nothing.   

Worst nightmares became reality.   

It’s not like you or I can change the past no matter how hard we try.   And forget the future, that is way out of the human being’s capability.

There is only one thing we actually control; our minds.

We do choose our thoughts.  We can control whether we care about this, or that, or the other thing.  That is it.  Pretty simple.

I still don’t care much, but I know it’ is by my own choice.

I am ready, so ready,  to think nothing.  No thoughts.  This mind of mine needs a serious rest.

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Cheers!

Clutter wasn’t holding me back.

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The cause is all the clutter in my mind, body and soul.   MsRat appears to be full of crap.  I will provide my tools and my methods for my new life.  I have been needed this my whole life and only recently have I decided that it’s time now!

It’s a new day, the best day.  Cheers.

I repeat.

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Old habits die hard.

Old belief are nearly impossible to kill.

I am moving to a different journey.   And it isn’t because I have succeeded at this journey, it’s because of what I have learned over the course of trying to de-clutter.   You see it’s not the clutter that is causes the problem, it is my mind.  NO matter what problem you see in your life, if you can identify it and recognize it, then you already have everything needed to fix it.

I have spent the last two years doing everything in my power, ( at least I thought I was)  to change my life.

Only the other day I looked around and saw a “repeat” of everything I wanted to change and all that I wanted to leave behind.  My new small house, within a a 9 month period, has acquired all characteristics that I didn’t like about our old house.  Why is that?

This is why; and I want you to pay close attention –It’s my mind.  It’s my thoughts.  It is my beliefs.  I fall into the same old patterns.  I am was on a replay loop. So of course everything would be the same, there was no chance of it ever changing. No chance whatsoever.

My symptoms:  procrastination, lack of focus, unwillingness to let go, believing that another day it will be different, and making excuses.

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I will tell you I have succeeded in some areas.  I have conquered any weight issues I used to have, and I am closer than ever to resolving the issues with my family of origin.  So now is the time I need to work on me.

My recent readings have helped me to clearly see this and so I have an understanding of what I need to do.  These are the book so far that have made a significant impact:

Love yourself, like your life depends on it.

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You Can Heal Your Life

In addition to these I am reading the Power of Now and Tao the Ching

I am giving you these books as insight into my current journey.   I now know I have to seriously change my auto- pilot repetitive thought patterns in order to be happy and free.   And if you find yourself in the same boat, you might want to pick one of these books up and read.  I found them inspiring and helpful.

I have to concentrate on me.  All else will follow.

As always Cheers!

I get it.

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Today I am heading outside to work on a project that has nothing to do with “unpacking” any rat.   I have already spent an hour freezing my butt off at the dog park, and as if that wasn’t enough, I am heading back to the woods to work with my camera.

I have to leave it behind. “It” being all the external stuff that isn’t me.

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I had a particularity bad day yesterday.

I believed ( for the bazilllionth time) that people could overcome past hurts and heal.   Now, I know that belief only holds true for me.  Why?  Because it is my belief –  mine not theirs – and that makes all the difference in the world.  They do not want to change anything.  And no matter what I do, say, or try, no matter how much I care,  I can not, and will not, see my desires come to fruition.

These people are no longer worth my efforts, energy or thoughts.  I will never have what I want with them.   I should know, because I have spent my entire life trying.  Really trying.

On top of realizing that whole “belief” issue, it has taken me a long time to also understand that I get to choose what that bad day will do to me next.  If I choose to stay in it, (dwell on negativity) I will be hurting myself and every single moment of today.

Today- I am here to say, “I get it.”

It’s a beautiful day, the sun is out, and I am okay.

I am taking control of my thoughts and focusing on my real life and how I want to shape it.  It feels good but it is a constant effort.

I am off walk in the sunshine, feel the crisp breeze, and let each fresh moment fill me with love and gratitude.

Thanks for reading.  Cheers!

“atta girl”

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Self sabotage.   Ever hear of it?   It’s when we know better, and yet we continue to follow ideas, thoughts and actions that will not get us where we want to be.

Why do we do this? I have no clue, but I am willing to try to figure it out.  So here are my guesses:

1. We are comfortable in habit.

2. We are afraid of failure.

3. We are lazy

4. We have no will power.

5. We have low expectations.

6. We are afraid of change.

7. We doubt our abilities.

Those are the top seven reasons that just popped in my head.  You may have come up with different reasons.  (I would love to hear from you in the comments)

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Now, I want to take those same reasons and listen to them as if a child was telling me why they could never ride a two-wheeler.

My reaction to the child’s reasons was simple and automatic. I effortlessly and instantly offered encouragement.  I quickly reassured the child that there was no harm in trying.  I let him/her know the worst that could happen isn’t that bad, and that she could always try again.

So why is it as adults we (I) fail to encourage ourselves?  I don’t have the answers, nothing is popping into my head.

As a matter of fact, I must take this little post and apply it to myself.   It’s time to encourage myself.   Wish me well.  Cheers to all of you out there who are trying to break out of your existing patterns.

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Tip: Treat yourself like you care about yourself.

Inspiration: “Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.” –Jim Rohn

One-day one-thing: I am going to paint or draw  something today.