So many times we think of the new year as the starting line. The moment in time when we are going to get our shit together and make a real difference in the time we spend here on earth. How silly is that? I mean so many years I have considered the New Year as the day of change. I waited for that very date to start, to be better, then over the weeks I stop, and I usually failed.
This new year is different. No, really it is. Why? or How? you ask. I’m about to tell you.
Here’s the thing. Every second we have the power to change. But we get lazy, we become out of tune with ourselves and many times just completely over powered by circumstance we do not control. We listen to those who do not have our best interests at heart. We follow ideals that are impossible to achieve. And we worship the wrong gods. This is what has to end. We can only be led to follow the wrong direction if we stop paying attention to ourselves.
It’s all about personal awareness. It’s all about keeping the life you want forefront in you thoughts and actions. Its about really making what you want into a priority. Not only on January first, but during every second of you life.
Now I am not saying this is easy, heck no. If it was easy I certainly would have mastered it by now. It’s not easy. For some reason, however, this time, I don’t see my life as drive, guts, or ambition. I do not criticize myself based on achievements or willpower or anything thing like that. All I see as real is awareness. Be aware. Recognize your thoughts and change them to align with who you want to be. Identify your feelings and process them. Calibrate your actions to fall in line with your life and only your life.
Everything will fall in place if you remain aware. Get ready to be amazed and enjoy!
I am deeply troubled by the state of our country.
I deplore the past actions and the more recent actions of our police force.
We are living in what can be best describe as a police state, the early stages.
Moreover, I can say with confidence that racism is rampant and it can’t hide any longer.
The global and national protests give me hope.
We are not alone.
I pray our voices stay strong, loud and undeterred.
We can stand united. We will be heard.
We can teach tolerance.
We can choose love over hate.
Old habits die hard.
Old belief are nearly impossible to kill.
I am moving to a different journey. And it isn’t because I have succeeded at this journey, it’s because of what I have learned over the course of trying to de-clutter. You see it’s not the clutter that is causes the problem, it is my mind. NO matter what problem you see in your life, if you can identify it and recognize it, then you already have everything needed to fix it.
I have spent the last two years doing everything in my power, ( at least I thought I was) to change my life.
Only the other day I looked around and saw a “repeat” of everything I wanted to change and all that I wanted to leave behind. My new small house, within a a 9 month period, has acquired all characteristics that I didn’t like about our old house. Why is that?
This is why; and I want you to pay close attention –It’s my mind. It’s my thoughts. It is my beliefs. I fall into the same old patterns. I
am was on a replay loop. So of course everything would be the same, there was no chance of it ever changing. No chance whatsoever.
My symptoms: procrastination, lack of focus, unwillingness to let go, believing that another day it will be different, and making excuses.
I will tell you I have succeeded in some areas. I have conquered any weight issues I used to have, and I am closer than ever to resolving the issues with my family of origin. So now is the time I need to work on me.
My recent readings have helped me to clearly see this and so I have an understanding of what I need to do. These are the book so far that have made a significant impact:
I am giving you these books as insight into my current journey. I now know I have to seriously change my auto- pilot repetitive thought patterns in order to be happy and free. And if you find yourself in the same boat, you might want to pick one of these books up and read. I found them inspiring and helpful.
I have to concentrate on me. All else will follow.
As always Cheers!
How many of you out there feel like this:
You read all the cool stuff about how to be happy , centered, nurtured, live in the moment, live in love and light, eat this and that, they are super foods after all and then you feel good. Yeah, it feels pretty good reading the words and thinking about the possibilities. “Feel good” words, but when it comes to living that life I have found it’s a ongoing struggle. Sometimes I want nothing more that to eat BBQ chips and watch TV. Yeah, crappy TV.
Don’t get me wrong, if TV was better I would pick the better shows….but that’s not the point. The point is there is only so much a person can take of learning how to be “wonderful in mind, body and spirit”
I hate to admit this, but I find it difficult sometimes to read more then the headlines…..or given a top ten list and I read the only the words printed in bold. I tell myself I will read in depth later. Ha!
I understand when a person is in that world, they are excited and want to share, and thank God they do. I would never spend the amount of time takes to figure out the grams of fiber and calories in any particular green smoothie let alone a book full of these recipes. There’s only so many hours in a day.
When I get my rest and eat well, and balance my day – there’s very little that can get me down. I know when I am really it, “it” being in the moment with a clear mind and heart, everything is so dang easy.
Come to think about it, I have changed my life. I should be proud of my growth instead of measuring myself against those far more centered or advanced than myself. That’s the key. I can read what I want and what I can handle, and if I feel like I am failing because I slack off, then at least I know I only have my self to blame…..which I should never do.
Don’t talk yourself down.
I should acknowledge that I do the best I can on any given day and that to me should be perfection. I am going to try to kill my inner judge. That judge has been living inside me way too long. I think this is a good thing.
Tip: Be as kind to yourself, remember you are still learning.
Inspiration: “Imperfection is not our personal problem, it is a natural part of existing.” – Tara Brach
One-day one-thing: Seek out the beauty in everyday life. Make mental acknowledgements of what beauty you see.
So everything in your life is a mess, you’re stressed and wondering what you should do. It’s easy to let your emotions take over at times like these, but that’s not going to help anything.
Here’s what you are gong to do about it: NOTHING.
Let go of your problems for a while. I suggest all day today, just don’t do or think anything related to any of the problems in your life. If you have to, put a rubber band on your wrist and snap it every time you find yourself dwelling on some issue you can not control or thinking about an issue that has you worried or upset.
I plan on reading. I know I have a pile of books that are begging for my attention. When you read you learn. Learning is a sure way to take your mind someplace else. I may be going to a movie, by myself. It’s quite relaxing to go out without any company. I encourage you to try it.
If you are alone most the time, go somewhere social. Go to a museum and join a talk or a group tour. You’ll be with other people and share an experience, which is usually interesting if nothing more.
By the end of the day your life will still be a mess but you will not have wasted your Saturday worrying about it.
Your mission should you chose to take it is: Make your today work for you and not against you.
Tip: Leave the desk behind if you can this weekend and just live. It’s hard to slow down
Inspiration: “My ideas usually come not at my desk writing but in the midst of living.” – Anais Nin
One-day one-thing: Enjoy something, anything, your choice.