(written Saturday night)
To tell you the truth, I don’t even think I have a positive thought in my brain right now. Do you ever feel that way?
Just another day of house hunting disappointments. Actually two on one day, no make that three. I sick of moaning about it, so I will keep this short. The first and second house of the day were no good. The first one was okay but not right for us.
The second one, which was my only remaining “maybe” out of about 30, I found out is in a neighborhood that is fighting a huge incinerator installment. The incinerator will bring 500 diesel fueled garbage trucks thorough their neighbor 24/7 from all over the county.
People from the Sierra Group have even joined the fight to protect the health of the animals at the nearby Zoo. No incinerator like this one exists anywhere in the USA. I learned all this from homeowners who had activist signs in their yard. It’s horrible what the city is doing. As I was leaving, I told her her neighborhood was nice she answered,” Yes it is very nice, but you know we all have guns…… it’s Cleveland after all.”
The third house lifted me up. It matched all the crossed off goals under my photo. It had everything, even enough land to build a Eco-house if we wanted. We stopped for some Mexican food and margaritas. I was so excited my husband said I sounded like I was on drugs. I just kept saying, “It’s perfect. This has everything we want! ” On and on, even the food was great. When we got home and we called for the lock-box code, but we were too late the house already sold. My heart sank.
I did learn quite a bit today. I know where I don’t want to live. I think I know where we do want to live, so that means I have gained some focus, and direction. That is, at least for now, and that alone is wonderful because it was just yesterday that I had absolutely zero vision. I’m still in limbo but with a much better idea of where we are going…….eventually.
Here’s the thing, I could have stayed home, done laundry and moped around because I had no idea what to do. I was blank screen. And honestly I would have done just that, except the laundry. But my Husband
made encouraged me get out of the house, and just drive through various neighborhoods.
Even now although I’m still bummed, at least for some amount of time today I was overjoyed, excited and deliriously happy. I felt like we hit the lottery or something. We both were so hopeful and life felt fun. Those moments with those great feelings we shared were wonderful. Some days you get those moments other days you don’t. Some day you think you’ll never have another fun day the rest of your life. Believe me I know.
The lesson learned: You have to shake it up when you least want to. When you want to craw inside a cave and let the dishes pile up because you just don’t give a sh*t – that is exactly the time you have to force yourself to do something, anything. I am as bad, if not worse, at doing this at the the next person. It can be really tough to pull yourself up, by yourself. I know for sure I wouldn’t have budged an inch, without loving encouragement from my Husband. Thanks MrRat.
Cheers to the great moments.
Tip: You can give up once in awhile but you really can’t quit.
Inspiration: ” One of the most beautiful gifts in the world is the gift of encouragement. When someone encourages you, that person helps you over a threshold you might otherwise never have crossed on your own.” – John O’Donohue
One-day one-thing: Encourage someone, anyone.