The sky is totally gray today. From my office I can see to the west, to the south and to the east and it’s gray. Shades of gray. Even the roads are shades of gray. If the air wasn’t clear, I’d swear it is gray as well. It’s been raining on and off all morning and into the afternoon. I have to remind myself not to be concerned with the weather. I can’t change it. But I am obsessing over it’s grayness.
I think gray skies are a trigger for me. They make me want to get in my car, turn the music up, drive through Wendy’s and get medium fries(fat) and small coke (HFCS) and head to TJ Maxx. I bet you it’s crowded there today. I am not going to check it out. But I am dying to. So weird.
There is nothing in TJMaxx that I need, I know this for fact. So then my train of thought is to think of something someone else needs. I could buy that for them. And of course my last resort is to buy something I might, or someone might “need” in the future. Not good.
(Hello self ? I am trying to get rid of everything, remember?)
This behavior is totally engrained into my being…and get this… I was about to blame the weather.
They do have music playing, colorful things to look at that I haven’t seen before. Plus I can go there without having to talk to a soul. So it’s not all bad.
I leaving the office now……
Ps. I intended to write about the various shades of gray in our lives on the whole. I thought I might learn a lesson from the gray in my life, but those words didn’t show up….. only crazy TJMaxx words. C’est la vie.
Tip: Splurge, buy a nice coffee, tea or hot chocolate and enjoy it. They all taste better on gray days
Inspiration: ” I prefer winter and fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape – the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it, the whole story doesn’t show. ” ~Andrew Wyeth
One-day one-thing: Plan a rain-date for the next crappy day. If you have something already planned you’re more likely do it and you won’t miss the opportunity.