For the most part I am really happy. However, once in a while, I want to scream. When this happens I have learned to stop. To stop whatever I am thinking. I then remind myself to be grateful for the thousands of wonderful moments I get every day. That is the key; gratitude.
Trouble happens when I allow myself to considered, to ponder or mull over someone’s negativity as something that could be true, may be true, or holds some truth. But I know deep in my heart that every time I welcome one teeny tiny inch of this negativity into my thoughts, it eats me up alive. It brings me down, way down, really quickly.
I can physically feel it happening, every time. Which is enormously better than how I use to be. Before I didn’t recognize the darkness of bullshit negativity for what it was. I took things to heart, took things personally and believed that I could change how these people felt or what they thought about situations. I can’t. (No one can.) I no longer try.
What I need to do is care about myself. Sounds selfish but it’s not. Because if I am down, and swimming in a pool of crap, I am no good for anyone. When I’m blue my judgement blurs and I can’t be there for the people who need me. I become the negativity. That’s not what I want for my life.
I am improving my awareness. But I still need to identify negativity more quickly and remember to move to gratitude immediately. I’m learning this takes practice. In time it will be second nature for me.
For now, I’m going to create a super power shield and protect myself from negativity and hatred. An invisible force field that disintegrates the atoms of filthy negative hatred.
The more consistent I become in quickly moving to gratitude the less I’ll need my shield. But until then I’ll be my own super hero and I will continue to be eternamente grato.
Tip: Do not engage in conversations that feel wrong to you. Change the topic or walk away.
Inspiration: “From the backstabbing co-worker to the meddling sister-in-law, you are in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life. You can either give negativity power over your life or you can choose happiness instead. Take control and choose to focus on what is important in your life. Those who cannot live fully often become destroyers of life.” ~Anais Nin
One-day one -thing: Create a gratitude notebook, make it part of your day to record your gratefulness.